jimmiepop's Journal, 19 Aug 21

Maintenance Day 62
Waist = 34 1/2"; 1/4" Down

As of yesterday, almost everything accomplished last week is now unwound. Getting down to the wire to solve the problem at hand. Everything else in life has come to a screeching halt. Running my ass off. Moving backwards.

Nobody is doing what they are supposed to do. And certainly not fast enough. Those that are attempting, are fucking it up. Waiting for responses on a dozen outside deliverables and twice that in outreach. Glacial. Out of my control. Stressed to the point of anger yesterday. Dressed for the gym. Cooked up a super melty grilled cheese instead of squatting. And granola. Granola was on sale.

At some point in all this I had the thought -

"When did you become such a little bitch?"

No really. It's a fair question. I have a demonstrable record of thriving during crisis. Arguably have done my best work under extreme pressure. In part, built a career on being the steady hand during the exceptional challenge. This is not that.

No high conflict divorce. No wack job boss. No drunken violent spouse. No dead or dying. No impossible custody battle. No critical board meeting, or due diligence, or numbers to make, or RIF to implement. Or potentially career ending crisis. None of it.

I am inconvenienced.

I thought I had things all wrapped up with a bow last week, and I did not.

Plus,#2, an active, uh, participant in the current festivities, has a front row seat for all this. What kind of a role model flinches in the face of minor adversity? FFS, I fought for custody so that they would have a safe harbor from this sort of instability and drama.

What the actual fuck, Jimmie?

Let's go!
#getserious #mindset

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“Your entitled mind is dead weight. Cut it loose. Don’t focus on what you think you deserve. Take aim on what you are willing to earn."

--- Goggins

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Target Waist = 32" - 34"
Target Scale = 195# +/- 5#

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89.0 kg Lost so far: 2.2 kg.    Still to go: 1.5 kg.    Diet followed: Reasonably Well.

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4058 kcal

Fat: 237.03g | Prot: 227.69g | Carbs: 272.06g.   Lunch: Steamed Rice, Pork Shoulder (Whole, Cooked, Roasted), BBQ Sauce - House (1 Tbsp), Hellmann's Real Mayonnaise, Muscle Milk Non Dairy Vanilla Crème Protein Shake (11 oz). Dinner: Steamed Rice, Ely Grilled Chicken Breast (per oz), Toasted Bread, Marie's Chunky Blue Cheese Dressing, Buffalo Wild Wings Chicken Wings (3), Big T Crab Dip. Snacks/Other: Kind Plus Peanut Butter Dark Chocolate + Protein, Nature Valley Granola Crunch Oats & Honey. more...